Today, February 22 isn’t the best day in the world for me. I share this story because I learned something very great from it. Two years ago, my first dog I’ve ever had been run over and was killed. I know some may think it’s silly to have such a love for my dog, but I did…and it’s one that no one outside my family will ever understand. He was there for me as I was growing up in a rough household. He was my only friend really, sad to some, but true. He listened to me when I wanted to get away from the yelling. He comforted me the most. And it’s so sad because I took advantage of him. I didn’t treat him like I should have. I never took him anywhere, I never played with him as much as I should of as I got older. And then I remember as the house was being redone two years ago we had to keep him in the garage at my Grandma’s house…and I was so stupid and too concerned to go home and go Chat on AIM, so when they asked if I wanted to say Hi to my dog I brushed it off and said I’ll see him next time because it’s too much of hassle to go inside the garage and go see him. But there was no next time…because a few days later he ran out and some idiot killed him. And that’s that. I feel so guilty because he was always there for me and I was too lazy to go in there to be there for him.
So, today I’ve been thinking about it all day and put this idea towards my relationship now. I’ve realized that lately I just fail to realize what I have. I fail to realize that I have the best boyfriend in the world, and no I’m not saying that because every other girl in the world thinks that of her boyfriend. But if you really knew him, you would yell at me and say “What the hell are you thinking? Don’t you realize what you have?” I mean yes, I do realize it. I appreciate him like crazy but there are just some times when I forget and just brush it off. But this is what I have to say about love and losing.
When you have something so dear to you, do not let it go…ever. Do not be stupid and think it will always be there because you never know when it will be taken away from you. Love as if there is no tomorrow, love as if you knew it was the last time seeing them, kiss them as if it were the last kiss, hug as if you can never let go. Enjoy every moment. No matter how much you hate doing whatever it is–remember it is with the person or thing you love and you should enjoy anything, ANYTHING you do with them. Enjoy the simplicities in life. Enjoy the little walks you take. Enjoy the moments of just laying in bed on a Sunday Morning. Enjoy the cup of tea you share. Enjoy the simple hug and hello when coming home from work. And if you have an animal that you love, treat it well. Play with them and give them the kind of love you want. Don’t ever be to lazy to see them.
It’s so hard for people to do this because no one ever enjoys the simple things in life–they always expect too much. They expect their lover to do extraordinary things every day but it’s impossible and that is why so many of us are disappointed in them. Because we have unreasonable expectations and when they fail to reach them we are disappointed. But if people just put these expectations aside then maybe there wouldn’t be so many couples breaking up. Everyone has imperfections in the world, and love is when you understand these imperfections and think beyond them. If you truly love, you will work through obstacles of all types…you will do the impossible.
That’s all.
dedicated to my puppy:
Ranger 1997-2006 RIP
and to my wonderful boyfriend, who I am so in love with….
My Knight….I love you.