It’s sad but true that the world does not revolve around the Beatle’s song “All you need is love” but it revolves around MONEY. And I absolutely hate the fact that it does because it’s really unfair. But then again, how would the world exist if there were no currencies. How would people buy things? You cannot exchange your love for an item…you need to exchange something physical and unfortunatly you need lots of physical money to survive in this world. I hate it! And it’s sad that this idea of money has taken over people’s minds and thoughts so incredibly that it has become the only object thye care about, not love, not people, not anything but MONEY. Because if you have money, you have wealth, and if you are wealthy, you have power, and when you have power, you are set for life and have not a worry of how hard it is going to be to live in the world.

I hate how the economy is so terrible right now. I hate how after two months of searching I have not yet to get one single call for a job offer. It is the most difficult task to find a job because so many people are not willing to pay for a part-time person. And it’s also sad because I am running out of money and I can’t do one thing about it! I can’t go up to employers and go “Give me a job!!!” Sadly, no matter how many times I call or apply I will not get any job offers! I’ve tried so many places, places that not even I a year ago would have even thought of applying at. I have lowered my standards dramatically and am basically searching for anything I can get.

I am so desperate for money and it’s so incredibly sad. It’s crazy how money has so much control over a person that when they don’t have it they basically go insane. People in the depression era went insane, many even took their own lives over it…and it’s SAD. Why go to such dramatic measures over a piece of paper? Why let it control your mind? Why does it give us pleasure? Why does it bring happiness? Why does it control our lives? It’s so simple. Because it can, because if we didn’t have it–to society we would be looked to as nothing.

And that is how I feel at this point. Nothing. Worthless. Just a piece of person without any power. I hate how I cannot buy anything I please. I have to be extremely cheap with whatever I do buy. And it is extremely hard because only a few years ago I was living the glamour life. I bought clothes every weekend…200 dollars, 350 dollars, 600 dollars at a time. And then it got worse…$40 a month if I was lucky…and now…nothing…for weeks, and months… And it’s so hard to adjust to it. Because everytime I go out, I see so many things and I don’t have not even a dime to spend on it. And it hurts like hell, makes you just want to cry and scream because you don’t have the power to do anything about it.

Yes, I am sure that there are far more worse situations than I, but as of right now, I feel so unworthy and pathetic that I feel like I’m lost and I can’t find my way out. I hate look for a job. And I hate how it controls me. I hate how it makes me unhappy everyday. I hate how I simply can’t find happiness in other things anymore until I know I have some power. I hate how money is so important. And I hate how my boyfriend said, “I guess I can’t even make you happy anymore…” It really isn’t true.

Love is still my number one priority, no matter how important money is. I’d rather be homeless and have him by my side than be greedy and have so much money and endanger my relationship. I know it is a crazy though…but in my mind…all you really do need is love.

Money is a neccessary evil that will forever control us, but love is a promising hope that will forever guide us through our troubles. And when you look at that dollar bill, please tell me if it brings you the same happiness that one would get from seeing the smile of a lover’s face?